Tuesday, December 29, 2009
The other night I had an epiphany(sp?). I was sitting on the couch feeding the baby in the middle of the night, and it hit me. Olivia had finished part of her meal and was giving me some really cute smiles. She didn't quite look like she was looking at me though, so I had the thought that maybe she is seeing someone she knew in Heaven. I like to think that she got to know Grandpa Stahl a little while she was waiting to come to our family. She was smiling pretty big while she was staring at whatever or whomever she was seeing. Maybe the veil is a little thin at birth and thickens along with our skulls :) Maybe it isn't so much that we can't remember, but that it's a forgetting? :) Maybe those first smiles aren't just gas, huh? It's definately something to think about and until I find out otherwise, I'll just indulge myself and think that my baby actually did get a chance to meet her Grandpa. Just a thought.
I have been so blessed! I always wanted a sister growing up, and I really wanted that for Hannah. So now it is a reality. She is enjoying it so far. She always wants to be near her. She usually is sitting right next to me while Olivia eats, she's right there when the baby cries, with the binky. And she even tries to shove the binky in when baby is sleeping :) Recently she has started giving the baby knuckles, or what we call "word". You know, when you make a fist and hit the other person's fist? Well since the baby always has her hand in a fist, I guess Hannah just decided to start doing that, it's really funny to see! :)
Both the girls are adjusting so far. I am excited for when Olivia will smile and laugh at all of Hannah's antics. And they can be the best of friends :)
Thursday, December 17, 2009
my precious gift from God
I can't believe that she is a month old now. The time is sure flying! We have had our struggles, oh wait, we still are struggling :) But we are trying to get it figured out. It was great having Grandma here for three weeks, but we didn't really get a schedule figured out while she was here, so now we get to. My house is a mess and laundry has been piling up, but at least my baby is fed and changed and happy. Oh and the other children too! haha It's definately a challenge having three older kids and a newborn. I never have a minute to myself. The hardest part of the day is after school and homework/dinner time. Fixing dinner while entertaining a 2 year old, while she's crying, "Mommy, I hold you!" I hear that multiple times a day. And they all seem to get hungry at the same time! How does that happen? :) Then Mom gets to eat cold food, since the baby needs to be fed first. Sheesh! Why is it that we suffer through labor, then the complications and pain of breastfeeding, and then it's still a struggle? I know, the kids are supposed to bring us joy, right? I'm trying to stay positive! So, any advice on how you juggle all your kids and get your housework done too? I sure hope I can figure this thing out soon :)